I Have No Control

To know that this special one

inside of me could become a
thing that I've never known,
tortures me, as I have
no control. And although
unexpected, the news keeps me
attached.

A smiling heart
as my mind wonders
what you might look like
if these selfish bodies inside me
allow you the chance
to be.
I fight to keep my smile
but I have no control.
You’re growing,
rapidly.
They’re growing.

A battle to the finish line,
the slightest chance of a tie.
If my one be the one to lose,
I’ll be the first to know,
the first to feel
and in the end,
the only.

I have no control.