Everything, Together

Fighting the tears, I
fought to make my
own self believe a strength
that lives here no longer. In
climbing up this ladder,
somewhere I rested,
sank into a step and

soaked in the surrounding tears
that threatened to lock me in.
Slowly, I saw myself
begin to fail me.
Issues delicate as they are separate
and while no excuse,
the way in which they hit
all together takes me
apart. My exploding’s unpredictable
but it’s coming and is careless
of my pride and planning,
sensing that I am still
seeking a strategy
worthy of my all
to get me closer to a
resolve far before I approach
the point of boiling frustrations
and the breakdown bound
to be attached to them.